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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 17:21

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He knew the spot.

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

If I only have a fire extinguisher to defend myself against some threat from people, should I spray them for max damage or just hit them with the fire extinguishers?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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Would this be the day?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But ive been too sick for many years..

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I have no regrets .

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Who then, do I blame.?

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She found it foreign!.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So, i spoilt her more .

I couldn’t, believe it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Put me off passion for life!!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was 9 years of age.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Comes on , in middle age.

My family never makes their pension either.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

When she asked me how she looked .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was scared of men, in general

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But it wasn’t much.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And i lived it daily.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She married twice! .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Ive learnt so much.

I was very sick at this time too.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She wouldn,t have been !

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I don,t even have a pension.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I waited trembling.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She loved him until the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Especially a lifetime of it.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im still living with it.

All the time i was locked up.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

What did i know ?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

So whats the point in blame.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was in good health!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

(And it was in our own minds.)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I said to her

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

This is soul school!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I think the readers, may guess!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

One cannot live in the past .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I write beautiful poetry .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We all went to grammer schools

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My life is so biszare .

But, we were locked up after school.

We were not on the streets..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I will be 64.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was seconnd youngest,

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!